In my dreams you laugh
Clearly
As before
I don’t have you walking yet or even eating but I’ve found your laugh again so I’ll wait
Little steps
Last night you asked to go for a ride
You never did that back then so I’m not sure what it was you were looking for
But if it’s something you really want
I’ll get it for you
When I’m awake you’re not around much and I wonder what’s wrong with me
Everyone else has you with them all the time
Maybe that’s why I only see you in my sleep
You’re too busy with the others otherwise
I must be special
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I have never aspired
I just know what I want
So I do it
It changes daily
I screw it up
I don’t regret it
But there are things that I miss
It’s bound to happen when life is full of wanting and doing and changing
Missing
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In my years of sleeplessness
I memorize your face
I dream of it in waking
Pulled from a secret place
Each night I see it clearer
Your eyes your lips your nose
With time to make perfection
Your perfect image grows
As life goes leaping by
I do not search for you
But wait to find you living
Until one day I do
Stuff People Are Saying About Me Behind My Back